Lately it seems like we can never seem to get ahead. I know in the middle of crisis you’re supposed to plan and prepare, but for us it always seems like there is a piece of the puzzle missing. Chores like getting groceries, gas or other supplies used to just be mundane, but right now it is a straight up mind-numbing challenge. No matter how hard we try, we always end up with just little more for the next few days, then after that we must go out searching again.
To be honest, it has been unbelievably frustrating, but it has also kept me incredibly dependent on the Lord’s provision each day, more than ever before.
“Lord, if you don’t show up, we won’t be able to have electricity to set up the charging station for our neighbors today and you know how long they’ve gone without any electricity.”
“Lord, if you don’t show up, we’re not going to be able to cover those costs at the end of the month.”
"Lord, if you don't show up, we aren't going to have internet to send our update video to our church partners in time for Sunday or any way to have our board meeting tonight."
“Lord, if you don’t show up, I might fail those that I love the most, and I really don’t want to do that.”
But you know what? He does show up.
He shows up as our neighbor knocking on the gate to sell us gasoline after a week of our car being on empty. I see him in the ladies at our local store who can joke and make me laugh on days where I really feel like crying. In every extra “I love you” or hug, each spectacularly colorful sunset or random encounter of kindness with a stranger, He shows up and lets me know that I am seen and I am loved.
With each new day, we are getting by and finding what we need. And little by little, I am finding strength from the love of Christ in the faces of those around me.